There is little glamour in starting your own thing. So much so that I usually stop and think...what am I doing? What is this space? What is this business? My mother will tell me she doesn't understand what I'm actually doing when I say that I am working. I get many scrunched brows and side smirks. BUT, the people who own businesses themselves, they are a different story...especially my kindred creative mama entrepreneurial friends. Starting a business is like having another child. Am I right?
And the beginning...the beginning is so hard.
I am definitely in that beginning awkward phase. There is a lot of building and baby steps going on. You will see I don't have my about page done. There aren't any fussy graphics and the layout is incredibly simple so that i can update my pages all by myself and not get confused. Then there is the writing...blerg. I get really nervous when i pull up a blank page. My brain gets a little crazy and I freeze up. I then have to talk myself out of that and just start writing. You see, teachers have told me that I was never a strong writer.....and they are right I am not....but i have to share what i know. That is my purpose so i will write and share and move beyond perfection.
And that is just it.
My driving force isn't perfection....its imperfection.
There is so much wild beauty and authenticity in it. There is honesty and kindness and surrender in knowing you can just be you. So when you are starting something new and most importantly trying to stay afloat with it....look at yourself and see beauty. See passion and creative talent and uniqueness. Don't stop because there is competition or a better talent around the corner....continue because there isn't any other you in the world. What you have to say and how you deliver it, how you take your coffee or wear your clothes or decorate your home. It's you and it's your driving force to keep going and share what you know with the world- because that is your purpose.
We, as a collective circle of women looking to be inspired and to feel grounded, need EACH OTHER.
We must KEEP GOING.
Let's work together to love ourselves more. I just turned 35 and it couldn't be a better mantra. Staying healthy, juggling motherhood with creative work, following your dreams, keeping your true spirit in check requires a significant about of balance. A balance that is ours and only ours. It changes with the seasons and ebb's and flows with the uncertainty of each day. There is no perfect. There is no average or normal or 50/50 anything. So know what balances you and keeps the wheels turning. Know when to slow down, take a nap, delegate, indulge, etc. I am here for you fellow creatives. Let's keep going TOGETHER.
p.s. stay tuned as i launch my "creative mamas" interview series where we get to see inside the lives of some pretty creatively talented and imperfect mamas.